Vision 30: Agender

I have no idea what to say. This is just one of those posts that I’m completely unsure about. It hasn’t been long since I learned about this, but this is probably one of the most important things that I’ve learned about myself in many years. I am agender, meaning that I identify myself as having no gender, even though I am biology female. It’s strange to say it out loud or in a way that I’m actually looking or listening to myself say this. This isn’t something that I knew about for years and just didn’t say anything about it,...

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Vision 29: Freedom

It’s been a while since I sat down and wrote anything about my life. Since I left and came back from Zenkaikon, I’m faced with some harsh truths about myself and my life. Coming back home and becoming settled in my normal reality, I notice that I’m just unsatisfied with the way some things are. Mostly, I speak about how I latch on to spirituality in a way that makes me feel trapped and in a box. I feel that when I’m entrenched in spirituality, I can’t go beyond it’s boundaries. Where I feel like everything related to spirituality...

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Taking a Trip

I'm going to be leaving for a local anime convention tomorrow, so if you get a reading I won't be able to do it till about a week from now.Anyway, I hope you guys are having a great night/day and I'll see you very soon!...

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Vision 28: My Love List #18

Follow my blog with Bloglovin       My Love List #18 After delaying this for way over a month, I'm finally starting it back up again to increase my positive vibes and energy! I hope you all enjoy! I love the crush I have currently, it feels so good to send my loving vibes to someone I have special feelings for! I love noticing that I’m loving myself for my weirdness through my crush I love my new Herkimer Diamond crystal that gives me really deep insight! I love the money class that I’m in and all the wonderful...

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Vision 27: A Letter to My Mother

I’m quite emotional right now because I know there are a lot of stuff I need to let go of, and one of the most toxic things that needs to be released is my mom’s drinking. I so bad want to tell her how I feel but I’ve been down that road many times before to no avail. I still hold a lot of emotions, energy and anger towards my mom’s decisions to drink constantly. I tell myself that it’s not as bad as it seems but it is and it destroys me inside every time I see it. All it does is kill whatever shed of harmony that manages to reach...

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Vision 26: Emotional Independence

In this past weekend a lot has been revealed to me. Things that I feel are one of the most important things in being a human being in this world, especially when you have a family. It started when I posted in the money course Facebook group about positive focus and accountability, in fact I should post that up when I have the time, it’s really good stuff. Anyway, a fellow member posted about her experience of feeling emotionally codependent on her family, to the point she had no clue what to do with her life if she had to do things...

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Vision 25: The Worthiness Game

It’s been about a month since I started my money class and the evidence of my improvement is there. Things are getting better, easier, more downstream and generally healing. Even though I haven’t been doing all of the later assignments every day, since so much has happened that re-awaken me to who I truly am, I do find some slippage. The biggest issue that I do have out of everything however is feeling worthy. I don’t know why but it’s hard for me to feel worthy or allowing for the better to come. Because as soon as things get good...

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