Vision 27: A Letter to My Mother

I’m quite emotional right now because I know there are a lot of stuff I need to let go of, and one of the most toxic things that needs to be released is my mom’s drinking. I so bad want to tell her how I feel but I’ve been down that road many times before to no avail. I still hold a lot of emotions, energy and anger towards my mom’s decisions to drink constantly. I tell myself that it’s not as bad as it seems but it is and it destroys me inside every time I see it. All it does is kill whatever shed of harmony that manages to reach...

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Vision 26: Emotional Independence

In this past weekend a lot has been revealed to me. Things that I feel are one of the most important things in being a human being in this world, especially when you have a family. It started when I posted in the money course Facebook group about positive focus and accountability, in fact I should post that up when I have the time, it’s really good stuff. Anyway, a fellow member posted about her experience of feeling emotionally codependent on her family, to the point she had no clue what to do with her life if she had to do things...

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Vision 25: The Worthiness Game

It’s been about a month since I started my money class and the evidence of my improvement is there. Things are getting better, easier, more downstream and generally healing. Even though I haven’t been doing all of the later assignments every day, since so much has happened that re-awaken me to who I truly am, I do find some slippage. The biggest issue that I do have out of everything however is feeling worthy. I don’t know why but it’s hard for me to feel worthy or allowing for the better to come. Because as soon as things get good...

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Vision 24: Giving my Dreams another Chance

(I originally wrote this last week) In the last few days since being presented to start finding and pursuing my dreams again, a lot of fear has come up. The fear that I will lose my security of trying to find a job, the fear that my dreams might not work out or that it won’t be perfect. But my loving guide Joe reminded me that “There is never a good enough excuse to not follow your dreams!” And I can only say, “I should be the one saying that!” I’m the one that gives those “I had a dreams speeches” to people; however, when it comes...

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Vision 23: Revisiting My Dreams

This has been such an insane and intense week in all the right ways. Beautiful guidance, twin flame energies, intense intuitive guidance and a sudden burst of interest in using the angel cards again.  One of the things however that I found “strange” yet deliciously exciting was being urged to find my dreams again. This happened after I did a tarot reading for myself where they strongly suggested that I create a foundation in my life where I can basically focus on my dreams. So I can have a true “vision” of what I want my...

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Vision 22: Mental Madness

My mind has been a bit everywhere lately. I guess that is due to all the things that I feel like I need and want to do. Gosh, I have no idea when life became an intensely busy activity. Not enough time for all the things we have to do. Which has me thinking, or more aware of that maybe I set myself to do too many things to do, too many standards to do these things in, and just too much worrying about them all… Or something. Maybe my brain is just in overdrive because I’ve been off my internal schedule for a few days because of a...

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Vision 21: Helping too Much?

My guide Ouroboros have given me a lot to think about this morning while I was channeling him. He mentioned how much energy I invest into helping people around me and how that is affecting my own life. It’s funny, I was thinking about a similar concept about where I am to where the ones closest to me are, and how I like to drag them up to where I am. Even though this can be a great thing, it can turn into a burden easily. I love being able to be there for people, especially my friends. I love teaching and showing people how...

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