Vision 61: Feeling Like a Domesticated Human

I want to be free, I want to be free of the stresses that the modern life constantly inscribes us with. I want to be free of the pressures of trying to prove myself to everyone around me. I want to be free of the pressure of trying to look good and “happening” on the internet, constantly posting pictures and preaching about how good life is. What’s the point of it all, it’s making less sense to me. For some time now, I have been going outside in nature more. Enjoying the stillness and being-ness that we don’t experience in our...

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Vision 60: Al-anon

Yesterday was my first Al-anon meeting. Something that I wanted to do for a very long time but after a lot of setbacks in the last week, I was finally able to go. It was really scary, even though I was excited to go. I was fearful and didn’t know what to expect. I honestly wanted to keep a distance from everyone, I was emotionally and even spirituality separating myself from the group. After hearing everyone stories; however, I had the courage to share my own which wasn’t easy. Within a few seconds I was crying really bad, it...

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Vision 59: Letting go

A few days ago, the universe made it pretty clear that I needed to let go of some old pains. The pain of my first relationship and how crossed I am about how it ended. What was funny is how I was mentioning to the universe and the angels on how I was ready to finally let go of the animosity. During my way home the perfect neon sign of what I needed to do next came up. The person that was selling watermelons in my neighborhood mentioned how he and his brother “liked” me (yuck, they were way too old for me) and asked me about my...

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Vision 58: Frustrated

I haven’t been treating myself the best lately. I’ve been staying up too late and waking up so early that my body can’t keep up energy wise. I always had a bad habit of not going to bed at a reasonable time but for some reason right now, I’m feeling it big time. I don’t enjoy waking up and I have no energy. I literally just want to go back to sleep no sooner I get up. This is a huge problem for me now because it’s feeding my anxiety and I’m completely at odds with it. A part of me wants to get more sleep in the day, to relax more...

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Vision 57: Owning It

I feel good. I feel good because I’m not just finally owning my worth as a person, but I’m owning up to my purpose. For years I wanted to get back into drawing like I used to do, but somehow I would never fully commit myself to it. Honestly, all those times I did try I wasn’t really committed at all. I wasn’t committed because I wasn’t doing it for me. I was doing it because it felt like an obligation. I had to be better, I had to start drawing again because if I didn’t, it would be a waste of talent, time and energy. It didn’t...

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Vision 56: Love List #67

I love being an artist, I love that this is my path! Thank you for the path that is being laid out for me, it feels so exciting! Thank you for the money that supports me in my path, I love my new money relationship! I love the feeling of ease when it comes to my purpose, it feels effortless! I love creating my reality and making it what I want it to be I love being the creator of my reality! I love being in control of what I experience in my life I love the freedom of being all of who I am I enjoy my self-expression in my...

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Vision 55: Sailor Mini Moon

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