Vision 18: My Old Money Story

Today (2/18/14) I found out that I’m still attached to the idea that someone else has to deem me worthy enough to have money. This hurts me because for a very long time, even for most if not all of my life, I felt powerless when it comes to money. Whether I earned, attracted, manifested, asked for it or otherwise, I feel that I’m at the mercy of another force. I truly have no power over money and it shows in my entire life. Only till now did I realize this because in a few bouts of frustration over my money slowly disappearing,...

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Vision 17: Taking a Leap of Faith

On Friday I washed up Money Money Money, a manifesting playground course focused on manifesting abundance. I had no idea what lead me there but indeed I saw something quite amazing. Even as I was reading about the class and the hostess own success stories about all the money she manifested, I couldn’t help but to feel jealous. I wanted to have that success story about myself, but knew that these types of money courses are always expensive. But as I continued reading, I found out that you didn’t have to pay to get into the class,...

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Vision 16: How I Should Feel

A few days ago, I learned that my mother is going under surgery this coming Monday. It was hard to really know what was going on because my mother didn’t want us to worry. But as me and my sister questioned her we finally got our answers, but I won’t go over them here. The only thing that I do know is that my emotions turned into a whirlwind. Like a firm tree I kept strong and grounded no matter what the situation was because I hate jumping to wild conclusions. That and my emotional nature runs as deep as a seemly calm river....

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Vision 15: Being in the Present Moment

More than ever I’m truly learning to be in the present moment. In all the days that I didn’t get the chance to make a new blog post about my most recent experiences, I found myself in a state of living in my head. Constantly thinking about the future, possible outcomes, things I would like to do, worries and fears. A lot of this has taken me back in a place where I have little to no control. And in an attempt to regain control I franticly try to think positive, go general and just anything to ease my stress. The thing I wasn’t really...

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Vision 14: Honoring Myself

Even though things have been generally a little up and a little down emotionally, I am learning to honor myself and my gifts. My gifts of divination, vision, creativity, spunk and general liveliness. Sometimes it does get hard… Like, really hard. As if I’m being constantly challenged for wanting more ease, flow and smoothness in my life. Where I feel like no one understands who I am and why I am this way. Sometimes I put too much emphasis on people needing to understand me for me to be happy, but I am learning to get over that...

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Vision 13: I want

The last couple of days or even this past week I’ve been noticing a growing trend of my old feelings of wanting things that caused me great pain in the past coming back up to the surface. These things stem from my wanting of popularity and validation… At this point in my life, deciding to move into my lunar side this year, I don’t understand why I still want to indulge in the things that keep me blinded from who I really am. I do believe that whatever it is that we desire we can have, at the same time if the path there is painful...

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Vision 12: Gaining The Permission to be Me

The last few days have been full of great realizations through emotional upheaval and feelings of anxiety. I came to the point where I knew that being a coach, trying to look great in front of others or trying to be this beacon of light so I’m validated in life isn’t the lifestyle I want or need. I got attached to this notion in recent years that if people loved and valued you, than that was your worth. When I decided to change my lifestyle of that of Zen and peace, that fact was no longer valid. But in my recent dip in my own...

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