Vision 13: I want

The last couple of days or even this past week I’ve been noticing a growing trend of my old feelings of wanting things that caused me great pain in the past coming back up to the surface. These things stem from my wanting of popularity and validation… At this point in my life, deciding to move into my lunar side this year, I don’t understand why I still want to indulge in the things that keep me blinded from who I really am. I do believe that whatever it is that we desire we can have, at the same time if the path there is painful...

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Vision 12: Gaining The Permission to be Me

The last few days have been full of great realizations through emotional upheaval and feelings of anxiety. I came to the point where I knew that being a coach, trying to look great in front of others or trying to be this beacon of light so I’m validated in life isn’t the lifestyle I want or need. I got attached to this notion in recent years that if people loved and valued you, than that was your worth. When I decided to change my lifestyle of that of Zen and peace, that fact was no longer valid. But in my recent dip in my own...

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Vision 11: Friday Favorites #2

After missing the last Friday Favorites as well as going through a rough emotional patch, I think it’s time for another Friday Favorites! Where I list 5 things that I’ve seen in the last week that I totally love! Abraham Hicks- Does Your Frequency Harmonize With Your Desire? This is just what I needed to hear today after going through yet another rough emotional week. It was really tough managing my emotions but once I “let go” and just surrendered, I found myself listening to what I REALLY needed to hear. Just go general,...

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Vision 10: My Room

Yesterday, I finally finished cleaning my room. Me and my room have quite the history… When I first obtained it in high school we were great friends. I would clean it every week and enjoy myself in my own fanciful energy; my room was really MY room. However, after I got into college that is when things started to go sour. I wanted to rearrange my room to celebrate this new phrase in my life, but it never happened. Being as patient as I am, waiting for the help to rearrange my room slowly turned into me accepting that my room was...

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Vision 9: The End of Wallflower Girl?

Something amazing yet so subtle came to me this morning… That maybe where I’m being guided to and doing currently is “changing my personal story.” I didn’t quite understand it at first, at least on a bigger picture level and I still don’t have that type of perception of that idea. I do know that right now I’m currently standing in a place where I want to know how I can do this for others… How I can rewrite people’s personal stories… This doesn’t come from a place where I’m trying to take a concept and control it like I always do,...

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Vision 8: Drawn in the World of Stories

It’s been a long time since I last blogged and I sure do miss it. I feel that more and more I’m being sucked into the world of words, writing, books, expression through words and the life of being a writer. I don’t know what it is, but I’m really enjoying myself getting even more in touch with my lunar feminine side. There is just something about that dark and rather mysterious space that really draws me in. It’s almost like an addiction. Then again, I’m not a big fan of the light or being “out there” in reality (though I love...

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Vision 7: Finding my Individuality

I recently found that the person that I am currently is the very best person I could ever be. That no matter what it is that I do or what opinion another person has, I will forever be perfect. That was hard to say not too long ago, because for a very long time I felt that I wasn’t good enough. That I had to be stronger, more dynamic, louder and just the opposite of whom I am at my very core. What changed is looking and clearing out all the old junk and papers that I was holding on to for security. Looking at every old drawing,...

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Vision 6: How I Manifested a Positive Day

Yesterday was simply amazing! With all the inner work and changes I've been doing with having a positive mindset, I have no doubt that positive expectations, thoughts and beliefs create a positive reality. It happened when my good friend Ranz (his nickname) asked me via G-talk if I wanted to hang out with him and our friends for his birthday. Of course I said yes, especially since I didn't go last year because me and his girlfriend wasn't on the best of terms. Last year however we finally straighten things out so I was comfortable...

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Vision 5: My Love List #4

My Love List #4 I love Cooking with Dog because I love learning about simple and easy Japanese recipes I can make for myself! I love my fan pages because I can connect with other people like myself and show off my blogs and what I love. I love my egg and cheese sandwich I had last night because it tasted really good and filled me up! I love the orange and lemon tea I had last night because it had a lot of flavor and I didn't need a tea bag to make it! I love manga because it takes me to another place in the universe....

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Vision 4: Friday Favorites

Today I want to start a new fun thing for me to again, focus on more of what I do want and currently love than on what I don't want or currently hate. I call it "Friday Favorites" and it's basically me listing 5 of my favorite things that I came across in the last week. So lets start! Abraham Hicks: Why Fight for Our Limitations? This was a video that really opened my eyes and showed me the higher perceptive of the recent clash I had earlier this week. Point being, you can never control outside conditions to make yourself...

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Vision 3: Emotional Attachment and Security

Security always ran deep in me, being a Taurus that should be a no brainer but in the last year my lack of inner security has been very much highlighted. In my feelings of fear and lack of true stability I fought hard to find it outside myself. In fact, I feel the reason why everything I tried, businesses, jobs and personal changes failed in 2013 was directly linked to my lack of (I got the word faith) security in myself and in my external world. Today, I was fighting for control over the razor-sharp agonizing emotions of a really...

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Vision 2: My Love List #1

Last month when I decided that I needed to change my lifestyle to center around gratefulness I started reading The Magic by Rhonda Byrne. I really took to the gratitude list because it was simple, fun yet challenging to really look for things to be grateful for. Though technically you can be grateful for well... Everything, but that is not the point. ...

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Vision 1: I'm in Control of my Emotions

  Today was really interesting, I found out that I'm very much controlled by my emotions, and when I mean controlled, I mean grabbed by the balls kind of control. Which is ironic because for the longest time I've been focusing on positivity and managing my negative emotions. What I learned about myself is that I'm very extreme in my emotions. I can be really passionate about something one day, then the next or whatever length of time, that passion cools off a lot. The oddest thing, or maybe not by the Law of Attraction,...

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