I wanted to rearrange my room to celebrate this new phrase in my life, but it never happened. Being as patient as I am, waiting for the help to rearrange my room slowly turned into me accepting that my room was a very lack luster place to be in. I stopped cleaning my room as often, and slowly as personal problems kept popping up it was just a place for sleeping, watching TV, drawing and video games. It was no longer MY room, but just a room I did things in.
Fast forward many years later up to about last week, I felt the universe push me to clean out my old stuff. This prompted me to finally finish cleaning out my room which I started a few months back. Every day last week I worked hours to get rid of old papers, cleaning walls, vacuuming and finally cleaning off years’ worth of caked on dust in the very obvious places in my room. These are the things I never wanted to bother with in my room because I figured I would have moved out before I could get the room that I wanted. However, even with life being rather complex right now I found cleaning my room and seeing it sparkly clean so satisfying, even if I don’t get to enjoy it very long.
It’s just good to finally say good-bye to the old stuff, the old me and just the old energy to let in this new vibrant self. That is what feels so awarding! Better yet, when I was cleaning my room my mom asked if I wanted to move stuff around and of course I said “Yes!” Even the help I needed came so easily when it was like pulling teeth many times before which added to my discouragement. I thought I needed to wait for someone else to help me, but by taking life in my own hands and listening to those inner nudges not only am I finally moving forward, but the help I need is falling into place without effort. It’s just a wonderful feeling!
This gave me a great opportunity to finally make my room fantasy themed as I always wanted it. I even want to paint the walls light pink, but that will have to come later, maybe I’ll manifest the paint magically ha-ha. With my creative and artistic know how I can create many stunning decorations, posters and pictures to help beatify my room just the way I like it.
When I looked at my goals for 2014 I read “make my room fantasy themed” and I was in awe! Before I even remembered that goal, my intentions are manifesting right in front of me, because I’m sticking to what the universe have been guiding me to do. Thus, all the pieces have been coming together and I couldn’t be more thankful!
Even though I’m fighting some old feelings and even new ones about my current path of rewriting other people’s personal stories, I can’t deny that getting out of my own way for the universe to guide me have been the best thing for me. Even though I can get impatient with life, I know that letting the universe handle it and taking action when I feel inspired to have created much greater results than I could ever try to stack up to. Hell, 2013 was a great testament to my own undoing by trying to control everything.
I’m still giving the universe my troubles, issues, fears and worries because the answers I’ve been receiving have been far greater than I could ever hope for, and when things get tough I know that I don’t have to do it all by myself.
For now, even with my current fears, I will move forward with the opportunities the universe have laid out for me, I won’t run away and I won’t sabotage myself… I’m going to keep going no matter what.
I truly owe myself that…
